I am at it again. I worry about money problems. Yes, of course, it all started this morning driving Ron to work. We should NOT talk about money and bills.....especially early in the morning!
I wish I could give God the problems and just keep it there. I do not know why I let it take control again and again.
Praise the Lord that our PG&E was paid. Nothing will be turned off. So, why do I fret. God is still in control. I just want to be able to take care of everything NOW.
People say, "God helps those who help themselves" or something like that. I know that is not Bibical, but, it is ingrained in the mind. I have to do more and more in order to take care of things or situations. But, of course (yes, you know by now), God has not "sprung me" yet. I can put out resume's and call people, but God is the one who opens doors. I just wish He would "swing wide those doors" soon.
There is a song called "Peace"
Peace
Be still
Lay all your worries down
Be still, O my soul
For our God is in control
And if God is for us
Then whom shall I fear
And our God is for us
So lay down
Be still
He is God
Be still my soul
He is God
Today I will be thinking of this song. Singing in my heart like a prayer. Listening for the voice of God to whisper in my ear, "Sandy, I am still in control. Be at peace, my lovely daughter. Take my words, hear my voice, and surround yourself with my love."
Underdog says, "Here I come to save the day!!!!!!" Let me hear God say, "Here I come to save the day!!!!!"
As you can read, "Everyday with Jesus" can be a struggle between self, world, and God. But, in the end, it is all God because being with Jesus everyday gets you through the day.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
God Holds Your Hand
In driving Ron to work this morning (it seems God does a lot of talking to me at this time in the morning), I was looking at the landscape. What came into view were birds, lots of birds, eating in the grass/dirt. God reminded me that he feeds even the birds of the field. Then on the way home, the same thing. Birds eating seeds in the dirt.
So, I came home and looked up the verse, Matthew 6:26,27 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? ........(NASB)
Since the last blog, things have not changed, BUT, my perspective has changed. I was not worried this morning about money (which is totally amazing!) or how we were going to pay the morgtage. I do not know why, except to say that God is in control. With my personality, I need to know this daily and God is showing me daily that HE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN ME AND MY FAMILY.
So, when you worry, where do you go? Remeber, Jesus is in control. He sees our future and is walking it daily with us. We, co-laborers in Christ, have Christ holding our hand and helping us up that steep mountain of life. "He will not allow you foot to slip, nor your feet stumble" Psalm 121.
So, I came home and looked up the verse, Matthew 6:26,27 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? ........(NASB)
Since the last blog, things have not changed, BUT, my perspective has changed. I was not worried this morning about money (which is totally amazing!) or how we were going to pay the morgtage. I do not know why, except to say that God is in control. With my personality, I need to know this daily and God is showing me daily that HE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN ME AND MY FAMILY.
So, when you worry, where do you go? Remeber, Jesus is in control. He sees our future and is walking it daily with us. We, co-laborers in Christ, have Christ holding our hand and helping us up that steep mountain of life. "He will not allow you foot to slip, nor your feet stumble" Psalm 121.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
God is in control
While on my way home from dropping Ron off at work (6am), I was stuck in traffic. I was getting melancholy because of our financial situation. Being a few months late with our mortgage has me just a little "uptight". I pray and pray that God would find me another part time job or a full time job that pays well. Doing my part, I send out resumes. I need to follow up on where I send these resumes, though. I just expect God to have the recipient of the resume like what they see and call me. SILLY ME!!!! Times have changed and I forget about that.
In the mean time, Ron's car breaks down (thank goodness at home) and so we are down to one car. Driving Ron to work, son and grandchild to school then go to work. It sounds so petty right now as I write this. Poor old Sandy. She has to get up extra early and do some driving. Well, I am not a morning person at all!!
So, back to driving in traffic. I was having a conversation with God about money woes (I am sure that He is tired of hearing about it). I tend to obsess about things. I am trying to listen to God, hear His voice. Above my "whining" I hear God speak (now, do not think I am crazy, too.). "Sandy, I want you to read in Psalm this morning" "Where?" I ask. "Read Psalm 139."
So, I finally get home (30 min. later from Brentwood to Pittsburg!!!Yck!) get my Bible and proceed to read Psalm 139. I am reading out of my Parallel Bible that has the message in it. Most of the time I do not read the message, but for some reason I did today (nothing wrong with the translation, just not my favorite). Anyway, in verses 15-16 it states (MSG) Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, the days of my life all prepared before I''d even lived one day.
Hmmmmm......
So, God. You are telling me that you have known me and ALL the circumstances that I am going thru, what I have already gone thru, and what I will go thru in the future.
Now, you have to understand. I have been a follower of Jesus since I was 9 years old. It has not been easy. More on that later. But, because of my personality, I stress......A LOT. I have gotten better. Ron's nick name for me is "worry wort". I asked him one time why he does not worry. His response, "Why, I have you to do all the worrying". GREAT!!!!
While I was pondering what I had read, I was flipping thru Psalms. I was browsing thru chapter 119 -because I really have not read all of this Psalm. I really liked verses 73-80. In verse 76-77 it reads "O may Your lovingkindness comfort me. According to Your work to Your servant. May Your compassion come to me that I may live. For Your law is my delight." Then vs 80 "May my heart be blameless in Your statues. So that I will not be ashamed." The Message reads, "And let me live whole and holy, soul and body so I can always walk with my head held high." I like that.
All this reading and pondering, thinking about God, listening to the voice of God in my heart, God is letting me know that He is in CONTROL of all. He has seen the beginning and the end of my life. He has compassion on me (even though I obsess about stuff). HE LOVES ME!!!!!!! My comfort is reading His Word.
"Lord, let me remember to always know that You are in control when I think things are out of control and beyond help. You know my heart, you know my anxious thoughts. Help me to dwell in Your thoughts and not mine. Thank you for Your encouraging words thru Your servant King David."
In the mean time, Ron's car breaks down (thank goodness at home) and so we are down to one car. Driving Ron to work, son and grandchild to school then go to work. It sounds so petty right now as I write this. Poor old Sandy. She has to get up extra early and do some driving. Well, I am not a morning person at all!!
So, back to driving in traffic. I was having a conversation with God about money woes (I am sure that He is tired of hearing about it). I tend to obsess about things. I am trying to listen to God, hear His voice. Above my "whining" I hear God speak (now, do not think I am crazy, too.). "Sandy, I want you to read in Psalm this morning" "Where?" I ask. "Read Psalm 139."
So, I finally get home (30 min. later from Brentwood to Pittsburg!!!Yck!) get my Bible and proceed to read Psalm 139. I am reading out of my Parallel Bible that has the message in it. Most of the time I do not read the message, but for some reason I did today (nothing wrong with the translation, just not my favorite). Anyway, in verses 15-16 it states (MSG) Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, the days of my life all prepared before I''d even lived one day.
Hmmmmm......
So, God. You are telling me that you have known me and ALL the circumstances that I am going thru, what I have already gone thru, and what I will go thru in the future.
Now, you have to understand. I have been a follower of Jesus since I was 9 years old. It has not been easy. More on that later. But, because of my personality, I stress......A LOT. I have gotten better. Ron's nick name for me is "worry wort". I asked him one time why he does not worry. His response, "Why, I have you to do all the worrying". GREAT!!!!
While I was pondering what I had read, I was flipping thru Psalms. I was browsing thru chapter 119 -because I really have not read all of this Psalm. I really liked verses 73-80. In verse 76-77 it reads "O may Your lovingkindness comfort me. According to Your work to Your servant. May Your compassion come to me that I may live. For Your law is my delight." Then vs 80 "May my heart be blameless in Your statues. So that I will not be ashamed." The Message reads, "And let me live whole and holy, soul and body so I can always walk with my head held high." I like that.
All this reading and pondering, thinking about God, listening to the voice of God in my heart, God is letting me know that He is in CONTROL of all. He has seen the beginning and the end of my life. He has compassion on me (even though I obsess about stuff). HE LOVES ME!!!!!!! My comfort is reading His Word.
"Lord, let me remember to always know that You are in control when I think things are out of control and beyond help. You know my heart, you know my anxious thoughts. Help me to dwell in Your thoughts and not mine. Thank you for Your encouraging words thru Your servant King David."
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